There are different types of
Targeted Individuals. I can only speak for those of us who are long term victims of both covert harassment
and criminal use of microwave weapons, because this is what I've experienced. What I've
written on the other pages of this site describe most of what we experience,
especially the pages on covert harassment,
mind control, Surveillance
and My Testimony
We are being hurt in ways that most of you probably can not even imagine. But I hope you care to try to, because we need your understanding.
Those who target us aim to destroy/sabotage our relationships, homes, vehicles, businesses, vacations, dreams...etc. Even our own family members and friends are brainwashed against us - either convinced that we are just "mentally ill" or recruited into the program to help target us. Those who are less controllable are also heavily targeted/tortured.
We are held under satellite surveillance while being stalked, harassed and inflicted with various types of microwave and laser weapon attacks. The targeting starts out so inconspicuously that we often do not realize we are being targeted until those who target us have succeeded with isolating us from primary sources of help and instigating financial ruin. Prior to this devastating point we can think we are just having a lot of bad luck. Once this point is reached we are in for batches of Hitler-style hell that even open minded people would have a hard time believing are happening in "free" countries.
Set ups to discredit our testimonies seem to start in the early stages of the targeting and can include false rumor camaigns, fabricated emails, letters or phone messages and literal technologically induced brainwashing.
The targeting is manipulated in ways that make it look like we are just "mentally ill" when we try to seek support from loved ones or help from law enforcement. And too many assume that this is the problem. . .heaping more distress onto what we already carry alone. But this is not their fault, most of the time, because the general public has not yet been made aware of the covert targeting process and many have been unwittingly brainwashed by those who do the targeting. Consequently many doctors are happy to follow what they learn from the DSM and try to label and medicate us, instead of performing scientific tests to prove the radiation parts of the targeting...etc.
Consequently we are often forced to either not seek help or struggle to accomplish the seemingly impossible task of proving our sanity - proving that these technologies exist, and are being criminally used. . .and then proving that it is actually happening to us, WHILE OUR MINDS AND ENERGY ARE BEING NEGATIVELY EFFECTED BY MICROWAVE WEAPONS...ETC.!
We need other people to care to stand up for us. We need more people to become aware of what is happening to us.
Most long term targets struggle to survive alone, with no solid
support or acknowledgement of the horrible crimes that are being committed against us.
And heavy targetes are not able to help each other - someone once told me that "one targeted individual trying to help another is like a person with no arms trying to help a person with no legs." I have found this to be true.
Sadly, some Targeted Individuals have been shoved into institutions, assumed to be insane.
Can you imagine "being sane in an insane place"?
I heard of a woman whom this happened to. And it tears at my heart, because it almost happened to me in 2011.
There are times when my heart has deeply cried. . .
I don't want to be left to evil pretenses of helping hands.
I need to be comforted by those who can care to understand.
I don't want to be declared insane for their hateful gain.
I need you to soothe my wounds instead of inflicting more pain. I don't want you to watch from a silent distance while I slowly die.
I need you to stand here beside me as I pray to God and cry.
No problem ever got solved by misdiagnosing it!
Tears of a Targeted Individual
Much of the targeting seems literally satanic and inflicts painful rounds of psychological and physical torture. There seems to be a heavy aim to instigate feelings of being unloved and the deprivation of other needs. They try to frame us for crimes in efforts to have us incarcerated - discredited/slandered. And then there's the "rescue" - the part where they attack and set us up to be framed and then zoom in pretending to be rescuing us from sure destruction. I believe that the only reason this has not worked with me is because I have publicly exposed it. But, sadly, it appears that many have. I strongly feel that the "rescue" is really a desguised abduction, into an enslavement.
There are many reports of heavily Targeted Individuals committing suicide and this appears to be one of the aims of those who target us - to inflict such severe levels of pain, distress and deprivation of help that physical death seems the only escape.
After we are isolated from loved ones its more than difficult to form new friendships. When we get close to an individual they are either brainwashed against us or targeted into such states of emotional overwhelm that they have no energy left for us. And this appears to be the intention. In my case, there has been many deaths. Inconspicuous murders of the loved one of someone who is starting to believe us or care about us is not at all uncommon. I have been reaching out to people and am recently realizing how severely the targeting follows me. . .and this now has me feeling like I am trapped. I don't want people to be hurt for listening to me. Yet without public awareness the crimes seem to freely grow! Its a horrible "catch 22" that is in desperate need of change, through more public awareness.
I understand how difficult it is to believe that this is really happening to people, but it is. What is happening to us is as inhumane as inhumane can possibly get. We are suffering indescribably - we are suffering in ways that no human being should EVER have to endure.
Many Targeted Individuals have web sites and blogs on the web. But those whom
I know personally are not on the web. There are a few people, whom I had been close to, who are also being
heavily targeted. One has lost his license to practice medicine and has experienced strange chains of
"accidents". . .like a head on collision with a police car and a skiing accident that left him partially crippled.
My gut feeling is that these incidents were NOT Truly accidental. The fear and pain I saw in his eyes the last
time I talked to him has haunted me as much as what I felt in someone else whom I had been close to before
the targeting vamped into levels that tore us apart. And some others, who have helped me or supported my work,
also appear to have been targeted.
It appears that those who can not be easily controlled
or recruited are literally tortured around repeated attempts to force a "rescue"/recruiting into enslavement- into the covert program.
(It appears that those who have been enslaved are used in the "gang stalking" part of the targeting.)
This is a critical situation that is in desperate need of public awareness and government action to free those who have been enslaved, protect heavy targets from further harm and preserve humanity's freedom.
When I read the following statement it forced my aching heart to release a batch of tears; "I wish to everyone who has lasted long enough to read this, all luck in searching for just normal life. When we will get the right to that, the most important battle of humankind will have been won." by Targeted Individual, Aleksander Zielinski. (I wonder if he is still alive.)
Please do not look for faults in Targeted Individuals instead of helping us in the ways that are needed. We are surrounded by manipulations that are intentionally set up to make us look bad or "mentally ill." We need your Love. We need your understanding. We need your help.
PLEASE LET YOUR HEART FIND THE COURAGE
TO STAND UP AND HELP STOP THESE CRIMES.
I recently went through another round of looking at a few videos, which were made by other Targeted individuals (TIs) and its been like a knife in my heart. My own pain is triggered as I hear about some of the same things I've experienced. . .and it hurts to know how real this is - how many people are suffering through ongoing intentional inflictions of physical and psychological pain and how crippled we often are in the process of exposing or reporting it.
Different Targeted Individuals experience different types of targetings, but the basic technological inflictions (especially mind control) and the covert harassment - gang stalking is all very similar. The darkest core of it appears to be some sort of sadistic/satanic occult which manipulates, brainwashes or enslaves and uses our loved ones and other people against us. And no matter who is doing it, or what we think it may be for, none of us deserve to be hurt.
Our stories are heart wrenching when we are allowed to fully tell them and share our feelings, but this has not been being allowed to much of a degree, when it is at all. So, I want to beg all who watch our videos to let your Hearts look past anything that seems off color, give us the benefit of your doubt and feel the gravity of our situation, because we are hurting indescribably through years, and sometimes even decades, of grossly inhumane, sadistic, covert tortures and harassment.
The targeting tends to vamp up (especially the technological interference with our brains) when we aim to do things like reports, blogs, websites and videos, because those who target us do not want these holocaustal crimes exposed, and the result can be confusing to those who do not know what is happening to us. But most Targeted Individual videos, which I have seen, expose many Truths about the sadistic covert targeting, especially the "gang stalking" - covert harassment part, which is the heaviest focus for most of them, although the technological parts, especially the mind control, are the worst of it all.
Many of our videos reflect the numb void of feelings that pharmaceutical and/or technological mind control targeting can inflict, but if you look with your Hearts you will see our confusion, fear and the excruciating pain that is tearing us up on the inside. Many of us are hurting indescribably and we need our fellow human beings to realize the Truth - that most of us (if not all) are not "mentally ill" and are being hurt in ways that no human being should have to endure, especially without validation, understanding and compassionate help from fellow human beings.
Technological mind control inflictions are evident in many of our videos, although most TIs seem either oblivious to this part of the targeting or are heeding the warnings (or threats?) of being institutionalized if we say anything about it. Some videos include outbursts of extreme anger and profanity, which are often mind control inflictions at strategic times, although we certainly have just cause to feel our own anger as well. (Who was it that said, "Underlying all anger is pain?" Its true and fear is also covered by anger, especially when we are being tortured for feeling it.) Some videos reflect strong lecturing about things that we are convinced will finally end the unbearable hell we are experiencing, but our ideas are not always accurate and not always our own.
Some videos reflect the religion part of the targeting, which tries to convince us that turning to the bible and becoming a better person can make it all end, although personal growth can not happen under torturous manipulations. . .and those who are being heavily targeted appear to be people who already had big Hearts and its the targeting that has been hurting and blocking us. (I believe that it is very important to have Faith in the Highest Power, especially under these conditions, and that God/Light/Love works through people's Hearts whether they believe in it or not. However, both the technological and pharmaceutical targeting can block that vital part of us and prevents our own natural process of personal and spiritual growth.)
Some videos reflect strong advise giving that comes from a yearn to want to help ourselves and others and sometimes from being told that we are the "chosen ones" who must save the world. (Too much is placed upon our shoulders and we can not accomplish it effectively while being targeted. We need other people's Hearts to stand up for us. I feel that the world will be saved by those who find the Heart to stand up with us.)
Some videos reflect the confusion of misinformation, which is either deliberately fed to us by those who target us or is all that we can find on the web's limited exposure of this crisis. Some videos show hints of the fear and pain that we feel as we are told that all of the technological torture and harassment is being done by our own family members and/or our own government, although some people from these arenas are merely victims who are being used by the ones who are fully responsible.
Some videos may be done by people who have been diagnosed/labeled/stigmatized with a "mental illness," the symptoms of which I feel are most often technological inflictions of our brains, in order to get us diagnosed and labeled and medicated so that we will be more controllable and so that people will not believe what is really happening to us. (I have fought hard to avoid them doing this to me, because the push has been ridiculously strong.) I feel that the vast majority of TIs are NOT "mentally ill" and are being tormented and/or tortured in ways that no human being should have to endure for any length of time.
Many videos have probably been probably been removed from the web due to Targeted Individuals being threatened into silence, abducted or murdered. (Sadly, some Targeted Individuals may get completely taken over and become tools/puppets for those who target us.) Unfortunately, some videos are done by perpetration puppets (perps) who are just pretending to be heavily Targeted Individuals and appear to be either to make all TIs look crazy or to befriend real TIs in efforts to inflict more pain. But I feel that most of those who do these videos are victims who have been completely enslaved and are merely being used by the darkest perpetrators. The plight of completely enslaved mind control victims, who are used in the foreground of the covert targeting, seems worse than ours in some ways. Its horribly sad for them too, particularly for the ones who were tortured/forced/threatened into enslavement or compliance. My gut feeling is that not many people make a FREE CHOICE to do things that hurt us and that most of those who do tend to hide behind the scenes.
I do not personally know any of the TIs in the videos I've gathered on the link below, except for myself. I have not even watched every minute of all of them. They are just a few examples. I tried to pick ones that either use real names, share personal experiences and do not too heavily leap into profanity, misplaced blame...etc. There are many others on the web that you can look up, but understand that, around the year 2012, many of us were warned/threatened into not using the "Targeted Individual" term so also check under things like "mind control victim" and "gangstalking victim" or "gang stalking victim." But my gut feeling is that most heavily Targeted Individuals are not on the web - like the ones that I knew personally who seemed too scared and ashamed of what has happened to them. And their feelings are justified, because some of us blame ourselves or have been threatened into not publicly saying anything and into not seeking help. Some just cannot handle anymore, while being slowly and inconspicuously destroyed. I hurt for them as well as myself. My stand has been for all of us. I'm sorry I've not been able to do a very good job with it, although this is not my fault.
Please let your Heart reach past the manipulations that many of us Targeted Individuals have been surrounded by and/or filled with, and believe us - believe that we are being hurt in ways that should not be happening and should not be allowed to continue. The most painful part of the targeting is often the isolation and deprivation of being believed, validated, understood, supported, protected and loved in ways that are desperately needed. (I have been mostly isolated and homeless since around the year 2006, when I started realizing part of the targeting, and severely isolated since the fall of 2011 when things got even worse. I am being tortured for writing this - sudden infictions of physical pain in my neck and shoulders as well as puppets jabbering behind me.)
I am still praying for decent media and government officials, in America and around the globe, to honestly stand up and publicly validate all aspects of the targeting - to let their Hearts stand up for us and save humanity. . .and I have faith that they will as quickly as they can. God help us all.
Since I saw some of the lipsinking videos, of last year's presidential debates, and have experienced multitudes of technological interference I am concerned that our words, in videos may be able to be altered. I hope this does not happen, but there needs to be an awareness of its possibility.
I no longer try to connect with other TIs, except for little spurts of trying to offer validation to them, because I have been too heavily swarmed by the ones who are perpetration puppets and I have often been blocked from functional correspondence with genuine Targeted Individuals. Two that I have been obvious blocked from were Dr. John Hall in 2011 and also Rachael Orbin. Racheal appears to have been vanished - her youtube account has vanished and her first video is now being displayed by someone else. I do not know if that video is still the way it was. Her other video, which exposed some very important things about what both she and I have been experiencing now appears to have been erased completely. Has she been abducted?
I had started sharing TI videos in 2012 but was being hit too hard and got too confused about who was or was not a perpetration puppet...etc. The people, whom I personally know to be heavily targeted, the way I am, are not on the web, and its hard to share things from people whom I do not know. But I have felt bad about not sharing more from other Targeted Individuals and now feel that I can not judge any of the videos, especially since I am being too heavily targeted, and am too overwhelmed with it all, to make accurate assessments. I hope this post helps to support all types of Targeted Individuals.
Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves,
and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.
P.S. Again, please do not look for faults in Targeted Individuals instead of helping us in the ways that are needed.
We are surrounded by manipulations that are intentionally set up to make us look bad.
The people who target us, and those whom they control, will use those set ups to discredit
us and make people look down on us.
I have undergone round after round of attempts to frame me
or have me labeled as "mentally Ill." The "mentally Ill" labeling stuff started
in 2003 - directly after I reported my belief that my little brothers death was
not an accident. Other members of my own family have been used in this process of
trying to label me, although I have been seperate from them through most of my adult life.
The aim has also continued through puppets - people who are controlled by those who target me.
It has often felt like a full time job to just avoid being labeled and force medicated - one of the
primary goals of those who target us, because the psychiatric drugs assure the success of technological mind control.
And on the smaller scales; There appears to be an aim to try to make me
look bad for smoking cigarettes. I've caught puppets taking pictures of me smoking.
What they will not tell you is the extreme levels of distress, torture and abuse
that they used to drive me back to smoking in 2008/2009. . .and the ways that
they have tortured me with microwaves and/or surrounded me with smoking puppets
every time I try to quit. Since I live in a vehicle, having to even use publuc bathrooms...etc., avoiding them is impossible.
The last time I quit they even had two puppets offering
to buy me a pack of cigarettes. Then there's the emotional part of it;
When I quit smoking I usually get emotional, for a while. . .as I
release pains I've suppressed with the cigarettes. This now posses a serious problem,
because there have been many times when I've been tortured for crying
or having any sort of deep feelings. . .and there have been times when they have had people
suggested that my tears are just cause to label me as "mentally ill."
I am not being allowed enough privacy, or the natural healing process I need to go through, in order to stop smoking.
I do not know of any words that can describe how horrible it feels
to be held in a public prison, remotely tortured and not allowed to fully take care of myself
and do the things I need to be doing with my own life.
While being heavily technologically and psychologically tortured, cigarettes have actually
helped me to retain my sanity through numbing out some of the emotional pain that I have not
been allowed to privately and freely release. (This may appear to go against what my original work
is about, but my past statements do not aply to extreme situations. They apply to normal living conditions.)
While under these extreme levels of distress, and forcibly held in destitution,
I have even bought cigarettes with the gift cards I've gotten from churches...etc.
And that leads me to another set up; The targeting has also forced me into,
and holds me in, such a state of poverty that I've had to seek help from different
towns, organizations and churches. I guess this is something we are not supposed to do,
but I have done what I have had to in order to survive. The first organization I had sought help
from severely limited degrading levels of help and repeatedly suggested that
I was not allowed to get help from any other place. This seemed like part of the torture process.
After that I sometimes felt guilty for seeking help in other places so that I'd not starve.
They changed their tune, with me, after I started writing about it. I have been able to get small
bits of help from a lot places since around 2013. But I wonder how many other
people are deprived of help. And I still feel like I am doing something wrong for seeking help in other places
or spending money on things that are not normally allowed.
My homes have been destroyed, in various ways, by those who target me. I lost my
first home due to the NH DOT's rights of eminant domain laws. The second one was destroyed in a suspicious fire.
And my Alstead, NH neighborhood was wiped out in a suspicious flash flood about month after I moved there.
(Four of my closest neighbors were killed.)
The amount of income or financial help I get seems to be controlled by those who target me. My work has been repeatedly sabotaged.
And the dozens of other jobs I have aimed for were either used as a way to inflict deeper levels of
abuse or were quickly sabotaged, through the targeting of associates whom they did not already have control over.
Since 2004, I have repeatedly aimed to restart my work. . .even changing
my name and its name and locations, but the targeting followed me through it all.
Since 2006 I'd been held in a state of having to spend most of my time trying to figure
out how to survive while surrounded by manipulative walls that hold me in a state of
(I have even begged for money at gas stations and in parking lots.)
There are those who chose to use my need for help as a reason to judge me,
instead of helping me. But, thank God, there are also those who do help in ways
that have enabled me to sustain my plight - living in a vehicle.
My first reports about something suspicious happening were in 2002 or 2003 after my
little brother's death, which happened within a year after he started figuring out
that our family was being targeted.
More on my personal situation can be found in my books, "Targeted in America" and "Ramblings of a Targeted Individual."
This is not a "theory." Its a fight for our lives.
Its not a matter of if you "believe it" or not -
its a matter of if you are aware and if you can care to
help restore our safety and freedom.
World I See
kind of world can my weary eyes See What kind of world need grow to
be? A world where kindness picks up paces To lift broken people
from wounded places. A world where the void of greed and hate Is
filled with Love by the hands of fate, A world where all is in a state
of repair And none are left in deep despair.
Copyright 2012 - 2014. Copyrights on various enclosed materials are also held in earlier years.
Information on this site is based on my own personal experiences and beliefs
and then backed up with links to what I've found for scientific proof.
I hope it is helpful to you. Please understand that those who target me
sometimes interfere with my writings through infiltrating my computers or microwaving me.
I am doing the best I can to
keep this site going under indescribably difficult circumstances. So, please look past possible bloops and
let your Heart focus on the core issues, which need your attention.
Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves,
and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.